Day 10, right? Toughest morning and workout of the challenge, hands down.
The games your head plays with you are crazy. I had a heart attack this morning when my alarm went off. I sprang out of bed like I was being robbed. Then I remembered where I was and what I needed to do.
I felt the anxiety fill my body, straight down to my fingertips. It’s like sand. It rushes in cool and stays heavy. Crazy. I got dressed. I walked in my driveway with the bunnies for a bit.
The drive in was very hard. Very very hard. I did it. I even walked in the building without Ashley. Put my shoes on. Walked into the room. By myself.
I focused on my breathing. That’s all I could do. Enter Chris 😇 You are such a warm spirit. I felt instant relief. Lighter breath. Thank you for bringing yourself to the gym today, m’lady. You were the first light I felt 🙏🏼💛
I kinda met Bonnie 😊 I couldn’t formally introduce myself because I couldn’t talk and breathe at the same time upon entering the room. Thank you for feeling out my energy. Thank you so very much for giving me this space 🙏🏼
Ashley pushed me without words. It was what we needed. It was stupid hard, but we did it. And I’ll do it every day if i can.
Get up. Show up. Never give up.
Other bodies helped me today, too. No one went unnoticed 🙏🏼 Some people are becoming comfortable. I’m enjoying this feeling in such a foreign place 💖
Today was tough. Super, duper tough. Tears hit me as soon as I exited those walls. We’re all “crazy” for doing it so early. But we all do it for a purpose. Heavy stuff. Physically and/or emotionally 😳 Whatever your story is, I super appreciate you filling the room this morning. Every body.
So yeah. I cried all the way home. Doing the most uncomfortable work is so tough. Being embarrassed because you can’t move your body is super tough. Killing that ego. In all the ways. The good work. From the inside. Super tough.
I’m gonna kill this heavy vibe with some animal energy. The zoo? Aquarium? Nature center? I don’t know. An adventure is to be had. Momma has got to lighten up.
But first, the good fuel ❤️💪🏼🔥🥚🥬🍳🐷🐔
Smiling Through It All 
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