::High on life, then life happens::

Yesterday was the best day I’ve had in many moons. It started with a conversation about getting to the next level – my next chapter in life. I am so freaking hopeful and inspired!

Enter suffering. The contrast to the sunshine that helps me grow; darkness.

My mom’s dad is declining at a super quick rate and he’s suffering. My mom is losing her dad and she’s suffering. My gentle and kind aunt has been his caregiver through this and she’s suffering. My family is suffering. We’re down to his last breaths and it’s tough.

But, how do I handle death? It’s been a long time since I’ve suffered a death. How do I help Greyson handle human death? This is new for us. We live through the circle of life with animals and plants, almost daily. But not the loss of human life.

First, I talked to my people. I have a couple amazing souls in my life that helped me center myself.

I cried.

Then I focused on living.

Life stuff isn’t easy. Some things can be easy, but death – eeeeeeeek – it can be so hard.

But it’s all about perspective.

So tonight, I took a shower and I washed off the day. I drank water. I made my room dark. I’m getting ready to close my eyes and notice the silence. I made it through today and you know what? I’m going to make it through tomorrow.

Friday is a new day and it’s going to hurt. But we’re going to get through.

Not only does the sunshine help me grow, but so does the dark.


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